Today marks 36 months of waiting.......Our dossier has been sitting in China since May 12, 2005......THREE YEARS!!!
Never in my wildest dreams did I think we would still be here waiting for a referral. I wish we had some sort of idea or timeframe as to when this was going to finally happen for us, but no one can predict the future and when or IF things are going to speed up.
For the most part, I am a very positive and happy go lucky person who does not let things like this get to me. I feel fortunate to have a very full and busy life....and I know we are getting close, but as each month passes us by, the reality of this adoption seems to get further and further away. I would be lying to myself and to you all if I said that this wait is not wearing on me.....Because it IS.
Even though it could very well be another year or more, we are in this for the LONG haul. In my mind I know that when we finally do see her smiling face, this wait will seem trivial and it will be worth every second and then some, but it is hard to feel that way in my heart when I am sitting here waiting, waiting, waiting......... with no anwers and no end in sight.